The Empty Thoughts of a Paper Crane

08 November 2009 @ 12:33 pm

Even though I do :)

Well. Welly welly welly well! I don't if you heard that loud noise just there, but that was the sound of my mind being blown. I can't believe I've seen them. Stood in their approximate area. Breathed their personal dust particles.

( Read it and weep. Or just look at the purdy pictures )

So. That's actually a pretty bad representation of my night! I can't really put it in words :o But I hope this gives you some idea XD

<2

Tags: boston, house of blues, thenewno2

How I feel:

rejuvenated

What I hear: Ohh, that magic feelin'...

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06 November 2009 @ 08:55 pm

So. Excitement.

Tomorrow, I see thenewno2 perform after waiting for 3ish years. I'm stoked, for want of a better term.

But I have SATs tomorrow morning, so I expect a massive headache throughout the performance. STILL! I see this concert as my immediate karmic reward for all the crap I've been put through in the past, I don't know... 5 years. But, mainly for all the stress of this past month. Turns out college planning is nasty business, and it's not boding well for me..

I'm excited to be losing my 2ginity though... should I celebrate with a 2na sandwich? Move to 2scon? Ohh, it's been a long week O_o

Wish me luck.

Tags: thenewno2

How I feel:

excited

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06 April 2009 @ 05:38 pm

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Okay, okay, okay. Four days until I jet off to Paris and catch a connector to England. Then, four days after that, I'll be ferrying to France. Awesome. It's so close that it's both exciting and daunting. Where has the time gone?! It seems like it was just last week that it was a year until the trip, and I was getting excited disgustingly prematurely... I truely can't wait.

I'm pretty nervous on the packing front, though. What to bring, what not to bring, unnecessary items, things I might want...

Most of all, I really hope my computer's ready for the horrifically huge amount of pictures it's going to be receiving in about 2 weeks time.

How I feel:

jubilant

What I hear: Sit on my Face - Monty Python... golly XD

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14 March 2009 @ 09:17 pm

bored

Boredom can do strange things... such as leading me to Twitter. I am so ashamed *hangs head* But, it shows promise. Maybe.

twitter.com/watchtherain if anyone cares :P

It was so easy to join... that it barely suppressed my boredom. *flails arms*

Oh well. Twenty-seven days until I turn 17 in England XD. Words cannot express this, so I shall leave you with an ellipsis ...

How I feel:

devious

What I hear: The Great Gig in the Sky

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29 November 2008 @ 05:10 pm

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Ahh George, love ya <3 I've just recently started hearing his voice in the backing vocals of My Sweet Lord and Wah-Wah and it just gets me...

It's so weird, I woke up and had forgot it was today. I was getting ready and decided to pop in a DVD. I chose a random Simpsons disk... and the first one was the George episode XD Homer's barbershop quartet.

Aaaand I got my Rolling Stone with Dhani today. Very Harrisony Day.

How I feel:

loved

What I hear: masquerade from PotO as sung by Nina on my cell phone

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28 November 2008 @ 02:22 pm

trichotillomania

Since I'm bored and avoiding my math homework, I thought I'd post something informative for once.

Hair-pulling has been seen as a "teen thing." But, it's not like a trichotillomaniac has the choice. It doesn't come with a rush or a high like drugs and cheating death do. It's something we can't help, can't stop, and it alienates us. And, it is most certainly not a "teen thing" that only affects the dark youth that wear their hair in front of their eyes the mask their own insecurity or just so they don't have to see the world at all. Trichotillomania can start at any age. I've been an undiagnosed trichotillomaniac since I was in kindergarten.

This condition is so often misconceived as self-mutilation like cutting. It's actually more like a nervous habit, like foot tapping and fidgeting hands. It's usually associated with anxiety and depression, but sometimes it's just regular children who don't know why they have bald patches, and think they're freaks. They aren't though, and that's the bitterest part to swallow. Children grow up feeling insecure, and become teenagers and adults who have to part their hair in a particular way to disguise thinning patches.

I hate that things can't be better for young trichs who have to make the slow and painful realization that what they're doing is unusual and develop an intense paranoian whenever they go out. The media, and society, are guilty of adding shame to the condition, along with so many other disorders. It's not right that I'm ashamed to tell anyone about this part of me just because I'm afraid they'll never look at me the same way. That I should be afraid that they'll stare anxiously whenever I reach to pull or just fix my hair. That people will see me, with my strange face, my lazy eye, and my patches of hair, and see something else that they can't ever understand or accept.

So, my message to any soul that may read this: trichotillomania is not an addiction, it's not a fad... accept its existence and maybe the secret hair pullers of the world will admit the problem and it can become easier to deal with for everyone.

Tags: trichotillomania

How I feel:

contemplative

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03 November 2008 @ 04:41 pm

Halloween

Okay, NOW I remember how much I love Halloween.
Went trick or treating with LAuren, Kate, Chatel, Catherine, Jess, Jamie, Christena and Kathy, it was *fantastic*. We walked down the streets singing like... well, tone-deaf people. Until our voices hurt and our heads were spinning. Costumes just make everything much more fun.

Then we all slept over LAuren's, which was insane. My friends and I are bonkers, and it became a wrestling match on about 5 different occasions (one of which saw chatel on the floor with Christena, LAuren, and Kathy sitting on her torso and legs, and Jamie on her head.) Aaand we played apples to apples which, I swear, fried our minds. We laughed so hard I'm still feeling it O_O? and because of a green "Lucky" card mixed with a red "My Bathroom" card, bathrooms have now because the new dirty euphemism. We started a game of Toss the Malted Milk Ball Down Someone's Shirt, which carried over into the morning XD Kate and Chatel fought over who was gonna sleep next to me (who knew I was such a hot commodity?) and I ended up sandwiched in between... twas tighhht.

Joint winners of the candy swap: Kate and Chatel. But, in my opinion, Kate won because she managed to get not ONE, not TWO, but THRREEEEE Heath Bars. *glare* XD

Aaaaand I still have Catherine's Halloween party this friday. I think I'll go as a panda.

Gah, I think I'm gonna go puke now from sugar intake.

How I feel:

exhausted

What I hear: Free as a Bird

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29 September 2008 @ 08:31 pm

I have nothing happening

yet everything is happening.
O_O

I'm getting really nervous for college. I keep saying "yeah, I'll look up colleges" that whole schpeel, but I have no clue where to begin. And I need to look for financial support... to support my lack of finances. My mom's about as helpful as a very unhelpful wall, so I'm getting all my info from Kate. Kate is now my go-to college girl.

I'm still looking for community service hours... but so is Rach so I don't feel so bad. Speaking of Rach... she's now a licensed driver. It's quite a sight, she's shorter than I am and looks much younger. And she's sort of clumsy and dazed like me (she's famous for sentences where she loses track of what's she's saying... "Yum. I love squirrels" being my personal favourite.) But if she can drive, she can cart me around places \m/ we're pretty low key and there's not many places to go around here. We have... a... diner? And a flower shot. I could just go all cartoony with excitement. XD

I've been a bit of an art freak these past few weeks. It's spawned a ton of photography, three (and a half) Dhani portraits, a Noel painting... in between homework. Our teachers seem to think doing no work in class means lots of work at home. Strange how that system works. Anyway, all my artsy doodle stuff is up
http://sminking.deviantart.com/gallery/
there are more drawings and stuff on page 2 than page 1. Lots of photography in between. My poor camera...

My guitar's still broken... it's bringin' me down :P I've been wanting to keep learning and trying but that bloody E string *twitch*
Oh well, I've got my piano. I can bear it.

I still need my passport! I think I'm panicking... I need it for April, for England and France *cue Handel's Messiah*

I'm still not over her... I feel so responsible. Everywhere I look, I see guilt. And for those who don't know, guilt is the colour of deep murky water that's so black you can't see the bottom, but you chance stepping in anyway only to find your foot falling down and down like when you go up the stairs in the dark.

There's a Tom Cruise advert to my right... now that just makes me laugh XD Tom Shoes *sigh* you do amuse...

I want autumn to be here, full blast. We're half green, half red. Whatever happened to the amazing New England autumns?!

I think I'm going to miss high school when it's over... I'm having quite a bit of fun in between unfortunate clusters of knowledge (and if you just read the word "clusters" and thought of cereal... yeah, i'm right there with ya XD). I mean, despite the disgustingly long walks between classes, I'm pretty much enjoying it! I've got a class with Chatel FINALLY! And so far my grades in that haven't been great... not failing, but not great. The story of my whole math career. I have to say, it's odd being down in math for getting a 78% on a quiz, and going immediately to English and finding out I've gotten an A on my first paper. I think school shall make me bipolar.
And French has been like... a party. We have our favourite teacher back, we're learning, we're having fun, and I sit next to Rachel and in front of Kate. It's just fabulous.

I'm wickedly over excited over all these crazy twosdays... it's awful that tomorrow's the last one and I can't go. But really... I'm not getting 3(or less) hours of sleep so I can watch a glitchy dial-up feed. *SIGH* Angry call to fios, methinks...

And now I've said way too much. Must go get my stuff ready for school tomorrow. TTFN

How I feel:

crazy

What I hear: Wind Up Dead

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10 July 2008 @ 02:20 pm

ALBUM

Thenewno2 have made a tiny announcement on their facebook page, and it has been confirmed that the album will be released on iTunes on 1st August.

*runs around in circles, flailing arms*

How I feel:

excited

What I hear: Don't Let Me Down

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29 March 2008 @ 06:00 pm

Home

So apparently last Saturday morning my appendix went to pot. I went to the hospital on Sunday, and was there until... today. I'm finally home, appendix free!!! Not that anyone cares, but I just want to shout it from the rooftops! I feel like a musical on legs. "Born Free" just bursts out of my mouth well... freely (no pun intended)

And I'm reeeally hoping someone, or anyone, here might appreciate or like this because I've been drawing it for ages XD
http://sminking.deviantart.com/art/You-Are-Here-81368400

Where I Am: home finally!

How I feel:

ecstatic

What I hear: Money Song - Eric Idle/Python

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14 March 2008 @ 04:40 pm

Free Hugs

So today, Chatel came in with a "Free Hugs" sign that she'd only wear if someone else wore one with her. I being me said I'd definitely do it. So I ripped out a piece of notebook paper (accidentally ripping out the beginning of chapter 12 in my history notes as well...) and scribbled "Free Hugs" on it. I then put the button my shirt through the binder hole in the paper.

I would reccommend spending a day like that... I got around 20ish hugs. Try it, I dare ya. :)

How I feel:

chipper

What I hear: Dear Prudence

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04 March 2008 @ 04:48 pm

The News... it's huge!

So thenewno2 have a new music video and an album mention. Hear that? Do you? It's the sound of the growing pit of dispair getting a spiderman bandaid put on it.

:)

How I feel:

ecstatic

What I hear: Surprisingly NOT Another John Doe. My internet seems to be boycotting it :P

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25 February 2008 @ 05:09 pm

I blame LJ

So everyone's been having a bout of Tennant fever around here. Well, when you add that influence to sheer curiosity, I have vowed to see Doctor Who. Wednesday. Eight hours. I blame all of you XDD

Other news... CELEBRATE GEORGE. I did my bit of celebrating yesterday, but since it's today, continue it :D

How I feel:

excited

What I hear: Rebel Prince - Wainwright

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08 December 2007 @ 01:30 pm

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Oh, my love, for the first time in my life... my eyes are wide open...
oh, my lover, for the first time in my life... my eyes can see...
I see the wind, oh, I see the trees. Everything is clear in my heart.
I see the clouds, oh, I see the sky. Everything is clear in our world.

John Lennon... our lost but not forgotten dreamer.
9 October 1940 - 8 December 1980

How I feel:

grateful

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29 November 2007 @ 04:25 pm

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You got into my life, I don't know how you found me... but you did... and stopped me heading... someplace else...

George Harrison
The mystical one I knew.
25 Feb. 1943 - 29 Nov. 2001

Where I Am: Spiritual Sky

How I feel:

contemplative

What I hear: Bewur of Darkness

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19 October 2007 @ 03:12 pm

Pep Rallies...

I normally sort of hate school spirit in all forms... but our pep rally today was definitely a blue-ribbon babe XD

This past week has, obviously, been spirit week. I skipped out on Monday and Tuesday which were Pajama day and pro-sports day. But Wednesday was class colour day. Of COURSE sophomores have the ugliest colour possible: orange. Don't get me wrong, now! Not *all* orange is awful... just most of it. So I dragged out my orange knee socks (my ever-trendiness. :P) Then Thursday was teacher impersonation day... I went as 'Tini since he was a counselour at SVI, and where's his SVI shirt sometimes.. and I own an SVI shirt. It all worked out. And today was school colours day... green and white. I just wore the most green I could and found some green and silver mardi gras beads.
Alright, now that's the wardrobe. NOW the festivities.
It was raining on and off all day, which I, of course, enjoy (I'm so perverse :P) SOOO we go out to the field at 1(ish) and it's not raining. The floats go by and my friend Rachel chucked candy at Chatel and I XD Gooood times. What made this pep rally not garbage was.... well, you know how rallies always have Eye of the Tiger, We Will Rock You and such stereotypical songs? Welllll... when the sophomores brought their banner out, you know what began blazing out of the overworked speakers. SGT BLOODY PEPPER!! I was screaming inside :)
Then it started to rain. Beautiful hissing raindrops everywhere. Leaves blowing around, my glasses smudged... ahhh I loved it. Hung around with Chatel and Jess and totally mocked school spirit. I love high school XD

Alright, done now. XD

Where I Am: Rhode Island...?

How I feel:

excited

What I hear: People

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06 October 2007 @ 03:56 pm

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I'm so bored I could start whittling sticks :P
I mean... I do have a history essay I should be finishing since it's due next Friday.... but who in their right mind want's to waste away their weekend slaving over Benjamin Rush, Mr. I'm-Arminian-and-have-revolutionary-views-in-medicine. NO ONE.

I feel like I'm not living anymore. I think I'm artistically repressed. O_O? I tried drawing last week... but I think I'm starting to just get worse and worse. Soon it'll be stick figures.
Not to mention I don't want to touch my piano. I feel like I'm unworthy of it :S Playing the same songs over and over, screeching out the same words in accompaniment *drops head of keyboard*
I feel like I never see my friends anymore. I see them at school and we laugh... but it's not the same. We just don't have time anymore.

Got to SPEAK to Rach today. That was so much fun XD I'd never go Britting with anyone else <3

No other homework, in a beautiful irony. Hopefully I'll be going to the art festival with Chatel on Monday *crosses fingers*

Where's autumn? It's still warm here :S Don't leave me hanging, mother Earth, I'm sitting here patiently awaiting the sweet smell of leaves and the crunch under my feet.

So, yeah, just a little check for now.

Where I Am: home

How I feel:

drained

What I hear: Cayenne - The Beatles

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25 September 2007 @ 06:53 pm

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Ehh just another day at school today (proving I live a boring existence... but I love it :D)

Erm... I failed my geometry test, but that's because with stupid geometry you have to attribute a stupid theorem or postulate or stupid definition to every stupid step in a stupid proof... stupid.
I'm not too worried though. It's math, thus it kills me slowly anyway.

It was wicked hot today, and tomorrow's going to be humid. Joyyy. We had three fire drills (yaye for delinquents!) so we got to sit outside and throw grass at each other. :)

I have lots of homework piling up really quickly... which I guess I should have worked on tonight. Mehh...

How I feel:

crazy

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23 September 2007 @ 02:01 pm

Good things in small packages...

Since my journal always seems to sound depressing (which I'm not, believe me XD) I thought I'd make my own little list of positive things that carry me to tomorrow....

I woke up to Evil Woman by ELO on Monday morning. Monday mornings usually make it really hard to get out of bed... but with that song, I boogied out of bed XD

I had a great week with all of my friends. My friend Chatel and I tried pushing each other over in the hallway. We must've been quite a sight; her a goth, me a hippie. We're such geeks :}

On Thursday night, my dad came and picked me up from karate and I was all exhausted (being the wimp that I am) and he switched the radio station and we caught the last half of Eight Days a Week. I'd forgotten how much that song meant to me <3

The weather's been perfect. Very early autumn now, and the New England autumn is coming on quickly. This is my favourite time of year :D

Rach, my triplet (XD), sent me Wufus' "Cigarettes and Chocolate Milk" which I couldn't stop listening to all week... she also sent me a LOT of Georgeness :DDD

Rosie sent me a video... XD

My mom, just 20 minutes ago, was cleaning the closet in the kitchen, and she found a vintage ELO patch, and gave it to me :DD

There, good things off the top of my head.

PS, it's Kari's birthday! :D

Where I Am: Rhode Island

How I feel:

peaceful

What I hear: You've Got to Hide Your Love Away - Fabs...

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21 September 2007 @ 07:12 pm

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Lemme hear a WOOOP. It's Friday!!
For the first time in a long time... I feel totally relaxed. There's no little bugger in the back of my head telling me I need to wake up early tomorrow (though I will anyway.) No homework except some reading... which'll be cake. :P

I'm feeling a little stifled though :/ I feel like I should be drawing something but I'm so uninspired right now. :( I feel like I should be writing my first song, but... my parents and sister have been home all week while I've been hear, so I can't sit down at the piano and just think. Word to the wise: pianos should never be put in the dining room, because everyone can hear you from there. I wanted it in my room, but noo...

I'm as tired as a bear, so I'll leave y'all with that. XD

Where I Am: Nowhere land

How I feel:

crushed

What I hear: Jealous Guy - Lennon

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